Feelings

So I have come to the sad side mine more faster than expected…. Sad I am yes, sad I am that I did not let people know how I felt about them, How much I cared for them and how much more did I deserve to be treated in a better way than I do!

Feelings are like an ocean or a sea, no matter how much you express it always seems way too less……

Worst feeling ever!

This is something none of you should go through, I really hope none on earth should, the moment you do it’s all doomed! It’s very tough to come out of it, it might be impossible I’m half way out of it and yes you got it right I’m only half way out, read the rest of my views on life and my situations you shall know how I do it!

So have you told the one whom you hate to your gutts as to why or how much do you care for that person? If not that hate is inappropriate reaction to the unlikely situation which you created by over thinking…..

Love might be the sweetest feeling on earth… It isn’t the best one though! Hate is, fear is, revenge is…! All are the dark sides of our human nature as they say, but if channelized they can be the best horses and certainly the winning one’s on the turf!

Turf called life having a million spectators, buzzing for every failure cheering for none as they spectators lose no matter you lose or win! You need to be on the turf, you need to be the jockey, you need to be the horse and make sure it’s your turf and you bet on yourself.

No one’s for anyone out there, all are out on themselves for themselves, if you think other wise you are making a mistake I am sure! All this while I on with the blinders trying to be there for everyone and thinking this focus will help me, take the blinders off and all you know it’s a dog fight even on the bloody lush green turf! There’s no true love there are no true feelings only thing true is truth and the truth is happiness is the ultimate goal! All want to be happier all are greedy and there you go the another dark side of ours….

They aren’t dark for me, if I have to survive through the wreck I am in and excel and be the one with potential and aim at the highest possible dreams, I need to get on….

I see the whole set of incidents as lashes of whip which might prove to be the reason for my win.

Only time will tell….

 

Love of my life!

As long as there was coffee in the world, how bad could things be?

Every day i look for a reason to be happy! A reason to smile! A want to feel loved! A hollowed heart needs to be filled up! A hug can barely repair the damage done! And then there comes the some thing black, something that is bitter, something that a man with his head in right place would never want to fall in love with

Black as night, sweet as sin

How,when,where,why? Don’t ask its just happens as they say love happens!

The aroma of the seed which are roasted, the grinder crunching noises,the oils dripping in and infusing with the pipping hot steamy  water the flavors are on the rise which make you go high!

As the first sip u take trying to soothe your taste buds you realize it is bitter, it is not your cup, it must be a crazy idea to sip onto something so bitter! Add a lot of sugar and gulp it down, you are done with the first cup and a few moments, a few hours, a few days later when you pass by a cafe,a restaurant from all the bouquet of aromas the one aroma that stands out, the one aroma that calls you, whispers into your senses and calls you in, just like a lover asking you to leave all your worries,leave all your tensions, leave all your unwanted materialistic life and just get in there and rob a few moments of life!

And yes there you are in true love with the black nectar which was personally hand picked by the angels from the heaven and planted to perfection by the god himself to ask the human kind to keep sane!

The cup keeps getting bigger, the sugar keeps getting lower, the black cuppa the disgusting black cup of liquid is now the black liquid which heals!

It’s a hug you get!

It’s co-operative,it understands you! Mixes with the harsh hot water or milk or soothes with the cream! It froths along or even puts along your cold stone hearted world to mix along with the ice and cold frappes!

It’s a language in it self,it’s a religion,it’s culture,it’s a way of living,it’s life,it’s love to eternity!

It’s coffee, no it’s not just coffee! It’s life,it’s love! It’s

love of my life!